I've Got A Blue Gratitude

Choices

1) I have choices.  When M attacks me, I do not have to quietly listen.  I can leave.  I can say stop.  I can have someone there who will observe when I am paralyzed by fear.  My fears are in my head - some legitimate - but not all.  I have new ways of dealing with people and situations.  I am more than my fear.  I am stronger than my terror.  I have friends who can remind me of that.

2)I am a child of God. 

3) I have two great dogs who love me.

1) That I can laugh - even when crying seems to be the more logical option.

2) That my daughter is ok.  Had a scary incident with overheating, hyperventilating and culminating in a panic attack.  She was scared but ultimately she is fine.  My son was incredibly kind an helpful throughout the event.  It's not often I see them at anything other than each other's throats.

3) Sleep.

Harriet

1) This was my Mom's birthday.  If she were alive, she would be 67 years young today.  She died 11 years ago and altlhough I miss her everyday, the time has replaced pain of her loss with memories of her life.  I am so very blessed to have been born to such a wonderful woman.  Memories of her love, her laughter and her zest for life and motherhood bring a smile to me. When she was alive I knew that one persone loved me unconditionally and unalterably and that is a blessing.  I hope that my children can say that of me.

2) Harriet was a fearless crafter and I am grateful that I got that from her.  It was her example of, "that sounds fun, let's try it" that ignited my passion for knitting.

3) Harriet held her family together and for that I am ever so grateful.  Since her passing, I have come to see how very hard that was for her.  She was the heart of her family and an example that I aspire to live up to.